moment like this.

life is full of separate individual moments that have the ability to be suspended in time. they can be triggered by something as huge as a whole day and what that day symbolizes or they can be triggered by something entirely intangible. like the feeling you get from one momentary glance your way. it's these moments that define a life for what it truly has the potential to be:

yours and yours alone.

everyone has birthdays and everyone turns a certain age or gets a certain present for a particular party...whatever. but what makes your life no one elses. are the moments that aren't defined by society, but instead defined by what you choose to hold onto.

last night proved to be one of mine.

it stays suspended in my reality, almost like a dream. i say that because now, a day later, it just seems so long ago. it's as if i dreamed the whole thing. it hurts me so much to think that that is the impression it has made on my life, but there is no other way to define it. I think what hurts even more is that, it probably means so much more to me than what it should or does for the others involved, but i don't care.

some of my friends have come to pass judgement on me, despite everything that's happened to my life, and, quite frankly, i'm sick of it. i am who i am, but don't judge me because you think you know me.

i hold last night on a pedastal, but i also think that this moment, this moment now when i've realized just how much has really changed, this is a moment to. this is one for the books.