Last year I turned 20 and wrote a nifty little blog about growing older and "Standing on the promises of a Risen King" which continues to sustain in truth even as my 20th year comes to a close.
But, now I find myself at the beginning of a new year. My new year. That brings with it a plethora of strange and new realities.
And I'm not just talking the new legal realities, but the life realities. The ones that stand to root me more firmly into the ground as an adult.
::shivers::
Every time I think about it I get kind of wigged out.
I went back to read some of my old posts in regards to my birthday and they've all gone on about having a certain emotion.
16 = Impatience
"happy birthday to me
i'm sixteen yipee!
all i need is a permit
and i'll really be happy!!!"
17 = Awe
"turning seventeen...has inadvertantly turned everything around for me"
18 = Excitement
" it's not so hard anymore to picture myself as an adult, going off to college, graduate school, getting married, having kids. I can see it all happening.
And it looks so beautiful."
19 = Grateful
"I am proud that today is my birthday and extremely flattered that so many others are happy that it's my birthday too but, 1st Corinthians 1:31 says:
Therefore, as it is written: Let him who boasts boast in the Lord
So, the truth is, the glory HAS to go to God first, because it has nothing to do with me."
20 = Blessed
"I am truly blessed by a God who not only provides me my needs, but provides people to remind me of Him everyday. I see Christ in those around me and it makes my heart swell to know that I am not alone."
What emotion does 21 bring you ask?
Well, in the wake of reading, not just the last five birthday posts, but all the posts I could get my hands on, (going as far back as 8th grade)
I have realized that, this year, I am all of these emotions mixed together. I am slightly impatient to see what this year will bring, but in awe of God's power. I am excited for the life He is continuing in me, grateful that He saved me and truly blessed by His faithfulness to me ESPECIALLY in those bad years.
Looking back at the past 21 years I praise God because, even though I strayed from Him (a lot!), He never let me get too far away. And it's because of Him that I have reached this point in my life, where I am satisfied in His love, happy to be serving Him, and with a greater perspective on How lost I was and would still be without Him.
Thank you to all those who greeted me Happy Birthday. My only request is that you keep me accountable to my promise to God.
This year, I promise to give everything to God, because He gave everything for me.
-aarika
But, now I find myself at the beginning of a new year. My new year. That brings with it a plethora of strange and new realities.
And I'm not just talking the new legal realities, but the life realities. The ones that stand to root me more firmly into the ground as an adult.
::shivers::
Every time I think about it I get kind of wigged out.
I went back to read some of my old posts in regards to my birthday and they've all gone on about having a certain emotion.
16 = Impatience
"happy birthday to me
i'm sixteen yipee!
all i need is a permit
and i'll really be happy!!!"
17 = Awe
"turning seventeen...has inadvertantly turned everything around for me"
18 = Excitement
" it's not so hard anymore to picture myself as an adult, going off to college, graduate school, getting married, having kids. I can see it all happening.
And it looks so beautiful."
19 = Grateful
"I am proud that today is my birthday and extremely flattered that so many others are happy that it's my birthday too but, 1st Corinthians 1:31 says:
Therefore, as it is written: Let him who boasts boast in the Lord
So, the truth is, the glory HAS to go to God first, because it has nothing to do with me."
20 = Blessed
"I am truly blessed by a God who not only provides me my needs, but provides people to remind me of Him everyday. I see Christ in those around me and it makes my heart swell to know that I am not alone."
What emotion does 21 bring you ask?
Well, in the wake of reading, not just the last five birthday posts, but all the posts I could get my hands on, (going as far back as 8th grade)
I have realized that, this year, I am all of these emotions mixed together. I am slightly impatient to see what this year will bring, but in awe of God's power. I am excited for the life He is continuing in me, grateful that He saved me and truly blessed by His faithfulness to me ESPECIALLY in those bad years.
Looking back at the past 21 years I praise God because, even though I strayed from Him (a lot!), He never let me get too far away. And it's because of Him that I have reached this point in my life, where I am satisfied in His love, happy to be serving Him, and with a greater perspective on How lost I was and would still be without Him.
Thank you to all those who greeted me Happy Birthday. My only request is that you keep me accountable to my promise to God.
This year, I promise to give everything to God, because He gave everything for me.
-aarika
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